How to hope for recovery continued
by Mary Louise
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An Interesting Setback
Ok I have been practising meditation, although it is such a struggle;
visualisation is a little more difficult but Katherine's advice to accept the feeling and the thought but to not accept that I am either the feeling or thought has assisted me greatly in not allowing the despair to be anything but a passing moment.
After a frustrating visit to a specialist who had no interest or explanation for ear infections or tinnitus but who noted that I had eczema in the ear I left that establishment in tears.
That evening I had the evening free and was able to meditate without interruption. My tinnitus was screaming in both ears and the tears were flowing freely.
I read an amazing verse in the New Testament preceded by a Psalm of despair. (22)
The tinnitus began to fade and was no longer dominating all of my thought. This remained for an hour and slowly returned but not I do not think to the same awfulness ...
As I write the noise in one ear is insistent but not ringing as strongly as yesterday. Perhaps the past two days were just heightened stress but the centering down prayer was most effective.
Living in Australia way from city lights I was able also to spend time gazing at the Milky Way and whilst hanging out the washing I was able to reflect on Keith’s conceptualisation of our connection beyond the body.
So as I return to work next Monday following a ten week break I will be praying for continued experiences of calm.
I continue to learn more about myself and the impact of my relationships. Forgiveness is a hard path to tread but I am walking the talk!
Keep me in your thoughts,
Marie-Louise Note from Katherine T Owen
You are in my thoughts Marie-Louise.
The fear is not who you are. The illness is not who you are
Wanting things to be different- wanting the symptoms to go is totally understandable. I do too!
But to the best of your ability, in these moments remember that who you really are is the Innocence, the Righteousness of God.
There is nothing to fix.
There is no problem.
You cannot be other than the success you are because you are as God created you and this reality lies beyond the body.
Take a break and breathe in Your reality beyond the thoughts you think you think.
We are dust or...
I write this on Ash Wednesday which in the Catholic church is the day for remembering that in the body we are only 'dust' or 'ash'.
We can spend all our time nurturing that dust, or we can put our efforts into remembering the Self we are and will always be in God.
Which centering prayer did you use? It sounds like you did something wonderful there.
To take a moment of fear and face it and meet it with new words that put you in touch with a deeper truth, that is a powerful achievements.
In the Love of God we share,